Happy world breastfeeding week!

I can't explain what a wonderful experience breastfeeding has been, not only for me and the girls but of Russ too. I only wish I would have breastfed Zac for more than 2 months. I really wish there was more support and encouragement for breastfeeding moms, I think that breastfeeding needs to advertised just as much as formula is and I hope that one day we live in a world where breastfeeding is more common than formula.

I couldn't ask for more

I don't know what I could have done to deserve such a wonderful husband and father to my kids. He is always there for me and the kids and would do anything for us. He works side jobs for extra money just so he can take us out to a nice dinner or take the kids somewhere fun like the great wolf lodge. He comes home from a long stressful day at work and doesn't mind helping me finish cooking dinner, cleaning up and do the dishes. He helps get the kids ready for bed every night and tucks them into bed, He helps me watch my diet and even does my workout DVD with me on the nights my friend can't do it because he doesn't want me to have to do it alone, He helps with the house work, he helps with the laundry, he doesn't mind changing and even washing cloth diapers and he loves spending all of his free time with me and the kids. I could not have asked for a better husband and father. I don't know what I did to get so lucky, He is my one and only and always will be, I look forward to spending forever with him.

The words I have always wanted to hear

The night before Adilynn's first birthday Russ and I lay in bed looking at pic's of Adilynn on the day she was born. Reminiscing about her birth, the first time I nursed her, her first bath, her first nap in daddy's arms. I began to cry thinking about how fast she has grown and how much I would miss not ever being pregnant again, never having another baby and never having another baby to nurse. As Russ wipes the tears from my face he whispers to me "maybe Adi won't be our last baby" These are words that I always wanted to hear him say and I just hope that a few years down the road when the timing is better for us to have another baby he will still feel the same way.

Adilynn's 1st birthday party 7-18-2010

The morning of Adilynn's birthday party we awoke to the sounds of thunder and lightning which was not good since we had plans of having her party at the park, but shit happens and plans changed so Russ and I got busy cleaning the house and calling everyone to inform them that the party would be at our house and not the park. It turns out that having it at our house worked out perfect because we didn't have to lug a ton of decorations and food to the park and when Adi got tired she got to take a nap in her own bed.

We had so many more quest than we had anticipated. All of my family came, Russell's mom and a few of our great friends. It was truly a wonderful day and I could not have asked for a better first birthday party for Adilynn!


The cake I made for Adi





The cupcakes I make for the guest

The goodies for the kids Adi loving her cake

Opening her gifts

I'm done

I'm done going out of my way for people, I will not do it anymore. Adi's party really made me realize who my true friends are and I'm sad that a few of the people that I really thought were my good friends wouldn't even go a tiny bit out of their way to come...Ohh well they are the ones that missed out and I will not being going out of my for them anymore.

Finding out who your friends are

Lately I'm really finding out who my friends are and not the easy/good way. I have so many friends online and they support me in so many ways I just wish I could find people in real life that could do the same, I guess it's easier to support people through words than it is through actions but still I feel like I'm always going out of my way for others whether it be watching their kids for them, being a shoulder to cry on, or just listening to them complain about others. But when it comes to me needing someone to be there everyone just turns the other way and than when they are done needing me for something I don't hear from them again until the next time they need something. I'm sick of being the only one that goes out of the way to be a friend.

While I'm a super excited for Adilynn's 1st birthday party that I have been planning it for months I'm sad that the people I expected and wanted to be there the most won't be. But I'm not going to let it get me down, If they can't go out of there way to be there than I will not be going out of my way for them anymore. I will enjoy every minute of her party whether they are there or not and they will be the ones missing out.

Night 1 was a success!

We finaly deciteded it was time for Adi to leave our room and move into her sisters room (this decision was partly made by the fact that Adi had not slept in 3 nights and mommy and daddy were tired and needed some sleep). We set up Adi's pack n play in Rylen's room (I didn't want to move her crib just yet because I wasn't sure how it was going go or if they would keep eachother awake all night). To our suprise The night went very well! The girls only woke up once at 5am, Rylen woke up first and then woke Adi up so I calmed Rylen down because she had a bad dream and then I brought Adi into my bed nursed her and put her back in Rylen's room. It is now 8am and they are still sound asleep... I could get used to getting a full nights sleep!